In packing my life up to move across the country, I’ve been carefully considering the pieces of me that I most want to bring. I feel a lot like Nichole Nordeman’s song, The Unmaking, sorting through what stays and what should go. Space will be at a premium in my NYC apartment, so the listContinue reading “mosaic”
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The Gd of Everything
Hi, I’m Jan. I’m an aspirant for holy orders to the priesthood in the Episcopal church. Here I am writing my wondering over today’s lectionary readings. Peace be with you. + I love how in my faith tradition our lectionary leads us through our holy texts, holding them up and contemplating their meaning in communityContinue reading “The Gd of Everything”
iridescent ii
here I see you and you see me behold and beheld / the ways in which we Love one another are as the alcove of a chapel holy and dark marked by incense ash and oil and icons flowers and bones and vultures bowed humbly low whispering an ancient prayer that knows of stardust andContinue reading “iridescent ii”
An Uncertain Faith
Evangelicalism tried to baptize certainty, tried to make it sacred, tried to force us into a binary where doubt meant faithlessness and certainty mean faith. “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see” (Hebrews 11:1), exhorts the author of Hebrews in a verse I haveContinue reading “An Uncertain Faith”
show the way
One of my best friends, Kat, has been my sister since high school. We were raised in the same Evangelical Christian spaces and have walked very similar paths through deconstruction and reconstruction. One of the things we’ve shared over the years is a deep love for the somber reflection the season of Lent offers. WeContinue reading “show the way”
Of mystics, stars, and dead things
blessed are you who sometimes feel all that you are is a deep pit of sorrow and fear and longing for something you can’t name and to be honest sometimes doubt even exists blessed are you for yours is the way of mystics finding unexpected answers in unexpected places ancient prophecies and swirling cosmos andContinue reading “Of mystics, stars, and dead things”
we remain
For those who are baptized, most probably remember little to nothing of the actual event. I was three and while I remember some of standing on the altar, looking at the baptismal font, and feeling the cool water on my head, I can’t remember the exact words that were spoken over me when I was namedContinue reading “we remain”
A Blessing for Returning
a reflection on Deuteronomy 16:1-11 When you’ve been in the wilderness that place where the flame that burns within you is just enough to illumine your steps and stars constellate the inky black sky and all around you is the swirling mystery of genesis it is here that you may rest and realize that theContinue reading “A Blessing for Returning”
a prayer for beginnings
Mother Mystery may we remember the Breath that circles through us is the same Breath that hovered over the water when your voice spoke into motion the cosmos the rotation of heavenly bodies the divine swirling of beginning which our seasons and days and bodies echo in symphony with you and may we remember thatContinue reading “a prayer for beginnings”
Iridescent
Beloved You Who hold the cosmos in your bones You are beautiful Radiant The very breath in you Is holy Breathe in The Sacred breath That hovered over the waters In the beginning And meets you now Honors the Sacred image within you Breathe out The breath of life An offering back To the universeContinue reading “Iridescent”
evergreen vox 